Every time I get angry, I mutter and then go quiet.
This was before T came along in 2011. B says that the first time he heard me scream was in the labour room. Well, be damned if I did not scream. I think I did a lifetime of screaming in there... for all the quiet persona I exuded, the delivery did show a completely different side of me.
And from there, I think I have found my voice. There are matters which have started to matter to me, and I voice my opinion, be it accepted or not. I do not take it after a point and give whoever a piece of my mind. I used to be so meek that I could not even get angry with a maid for coming in late every single day. But now, I make myself clear, and heard. This keeps me sane I must add. The muttering is still there when I need to vent out the small angers but when it is something big, my voice is heard now.
And that is all thanks to my daughter :)
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And from there, I think I have found my voice. There are matters which have started to matter to me, and I voice my opinion, be it accepted or not. I do not take it after a point and give whoever a piece of my mind. I used to be so meek that I could not even get angry with a maid for coming in late every single day. But now, I make myself clear, and heard. This keeps me sane I must add. The muttering is still there when I need to vent out the small angers but when it is something big, my voice is heard now.
And that is all thanks to my daughter :)
I know what you mean - I've always had a temper - but after having a baby - I can just lose it at the drop of a hat. I hope i can do somehting about it!
ReplyDeleteYours is for the better though!
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ReplyDeleteI can totally relate to this. I was just the same and ever since Vivaan came along I can see the same transformation in me :-)
ReplyDeleteParenthood can really change our outlook so much isn't it, you start feeling strongly about so many things because you want to make the world a better place for your children :). Corny, but true!
ReplyDeleteLife teaches to you to do everything dear! :)
ReplyDeleteLove this ranting, sounds so much like 'me'.