I have realized that I tend to speak at times to people who are close to me in a manner which I think is appropriate, but they say is completely inappropriate.
Let me explain, last week I happened to bring up something which was supposed to have not been brought up, as I had previously and he had explained himself. Here again I decided that I was not convinced with that explanation, and brought it up. Why? I do not know. Even when I said it, I know that I should not have, but I was just irritated and saying something which gets back was all that I was looking at. It got back, and now I do not know what to do. My friend is real mad, refuses to speak, and has already said I do not want any sorry or anything as its not anger, but just the hurt feeling.
I live with my friend, and sitting in two separate rooms, on our laptops, just meeting in the kitchen, or on route to get a glass of water is not what I like. Its in fact so far from what I even remotely like. I know what I have done was so not right, and there is no question ofa sorry. I am just thinking about anything which is possible so that I can say that I understand what I have done. I take this kind of liberty with some, and it so backfires at me. When I am alert, and very receptive to others feelings, I am always in everyone's good books. The moment I let my guard down, I tend to be a bad person.. I am not sure why. Is it because inherently I am a bad person? Or because I am not caring enough towards those I take to trust and like? I can not imagine that I do not care for them, but I think I tend to believe that I can say anything, and that is where the issue lies.
I need to watch my mouth!