May 28, 2013

Blog - a - Prompt, Day 2: Thirst

The fact is that I did not study at all in college. And, I regret it. I was a top student through school, and somehow the freedom and new country changed things up for me to such a great extend that I just did not have it in me to study. This is something which I have seen happening with so many people in IITs that in some convoluted way, I take solace in the fact that I am not the only one who lost it! Having known this for a while, even after I did graduate from IIT, I did not get myself into the groove, and did not go ahead for any further studies. Now, you may ask, WHY??

The itch to study and prove myself was my main motivation behind the studies, I never could understand what is it that I would achieve if I do go ahead for higher studies, and in my case, that would have been a PhD. A PhD would have taken many more years to complete and this makes it a more difficult decision to make. Once married, I always thought that if I do complete my PhD, where is the time for a kid and a post doctral fellowship at the same time? And who would be willing to come and stay with me in an alien country to take care of my kid? I did not have the answers to these questions, and that would be the primary reason I never was inclined enough to take up studies. But, even today, I think I want to head back to school and study something, make the amends which I have always wanted to do. These thoughts alternate with the reality and have me again at that place wherein I do not know where I am headed.

Circumstances do not always favour, as is now, and the thirst for knowledge shall remain unfulfilled.

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11 comments:

  1. Aaah I guess I studied for the same reason to. Prove myself. :)

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    1. I look back and feels so wrong.... but I know I will again do it eventually.

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  2. Never "studied" in college...Grazed through...but life always has a reason why it lets you make certain choices...and many a times the power of thought works out an alternate path without our knowledge...You never know...life will always quench your thirst :) Look forward

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  3. If you still feel very passionate about the studying then give it a few years and go for it!! Could be a different form of studying, online, long distance etc anything which works for you :) I visited Harvard long after my "official studying" got over and I so wanted to study once again. Till this date I have a dream somewhere in the corner of my heart to do some course there. Maybe, someday. Till then I shall harbour that dream :)

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    1. I want to study somewhere outside India too... maybe its just one of things which I want to do... no real reason why.

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  4. aathira ... people are talking abt thirst of knowledge ! me d fooodie can think of water or drinks when confronted with the prompt thirst :D and only later the thirst for some passion or knowledge or dream :) go get that phd if u really want to!

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  5. in my opinion, all the degrees are of no use...knowledge comes with experience, from reading and traveling...text book knowledge is no knowledge at all..so relax and do what makes you happy :))

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    1. Thats what I am doing right now. Trying to keep myself busy. Getting into the groove of daily life, but these thoughts do come barging in at times :)

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  6. oh you studied from IIT? which stream?

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